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Cut The Pain
run a blade over tear filled track marks
to see if inner pain stops when outer pain starts
so with each layer of depth
i take a step closer to death
i think i should pick out the spot for the death to begin
and align my arms straight so when rigimortis sets in
ill be layed in the position for my casket
no more worryin abt being a useless bastard
and with those words i let the blood drip
feel my pain...it starts to slip
could this be it
maybe just maybe ill find happiness
all because of these deep slits
but wait can i really do this
how...how can mom explain it to my sis
that her older brother is gone
no more drying ur tears...it time to move on
jenn dont worry about me ill be ok i promise
and with that it feels like my body vomits
body convulsing as life slips
and i know noone will forget this
how they found me with my slit wrists
and mom please dont get pissed
its not your fault
i dont ever want you to think its ur fault
and with that my eyes close
the funeral is arraigned and my friends attend
my spirit waits for the ceremony to begin
"we are gathered her to say goodbye"
tears from my sisters eyes mom why
why would he do this why would he leave
why would he not be here for me
but how do i explain
how do i give a reason
i cant and thats what makes it worse
cuz i thought life was bad but
suicide is a curse