Well. After my brother visiting from California (he's really into sociology, as am I), I realized how immature I've acted towards this community. I fooled with Death and I shouldn't have. I especially shouldn't have worried you all about it (although I thank noidea, Harry, Erik, and whoever else gave information/called/helped in any way). Death isn't something to be made fun of. It hurts loved ones more than anything. I suppose I could say I was suppressing my feelings until my sister over dosed, and I took it out on all of you (mostly because it was 5 in the morning my time when it really hit me, and all my in real life friends were asleep).
Ever since my uncle died a few years ago on Thanksgiving, death has just been a scary thing to me. Not necessarily that I'm afraid of death, just that I'm afraid I won't be able to kiss Erin again, have another cookie, watch another movie, type another sentence, drink some more soda/pop/Coke/liquid carbonated beverage. And this was selfish and immature of me.. To take my life to express my feelings, only in the end deeming myself immature, selfish, cowardly, idiotic, etc., is the worst thing I've ever done.
(By the way, special apology to Wizzup? (I think you gave me an IP ban.. I don't think YoHoJo can IP ban..) for coming back to post this.. I know you did it for a reason, but it's just been eating away at me and I needed to apologize.. Take the actions required towards this).
Well I feel stupid for being someone to leave to cause drama, and then to come back for that small amount of self gratification, but I never really left. I've been checking the forums almost every day (Jesus school is boring.. >_>), but yeah..
tl;dr, I'm sorry.
