Hello villavu,
I'm a bit of a vet when it comes to this scene, only recently became active again however many of you know me and my work circa 2007-2012. With that in mind, at 23 I'm probably a little older than the average demographic of this site. Therefore, due to recent events in my own life, I really feel the need to send a message to every user, young or old, that I can.
Hold your loved ones and family and tell them you love them every single day.
Last night, I lost my best friend to a stroke. It came out of nowhere, no serious health problems on his side. He messaged me last night on facebook a few hours before it happened and I felt I was too busy to reply at the time. That was the last chance I was ever going to get. I lost out on having a final conversation with my best friend, just because I was trying to finish up something for my college.
Please, you do not want to feel the pain I feel now. Be smart, life is short, talk to your friends, tell them how much they mean to you. Its not gay or homo, its caring and genuine. For all you know it will be the last time that you will ever get the chance. Don't you want them to know how you feel? You might not ever have the chance to actually tell them again.
I also lost my uncle 2 months ago to suicide. I was not very close with him, but I still have memories of him babysitting me when I was younger and seeing him around christmas time every year. I miss him every fucking day.
You only get 1 family, ever.
CHERISH every moment. No matter what issues your family is going through (trust, we all have them), tell EVERYONE that you love them. This was my 2nd uncle that I lost from suicide (the first was a couple years back), and I didn't even learn my lesson the first time around. Its so easy to just forget about the constants in your life and focus on growth, but life isn't constant, ever. It is constantly changing and if you don't keep up with your family you may lose the chance.
Finally, the biggest thing of all. I lost my father at the age of 20. I had to look at my father's cold, white body lying in his coffin at the ceremony...I will never forget it. Just staring at him expecting him to wake up and smile...but he never did. I can not express to you the pain of losing a parent when you barely even have your mature feet on the ground. My father was my idol, my rolemodel, the person responsible for teaching me how to program and teaching me how to live and love. And I never even told him.
I don't want any of you to feel the pain that I have. Capitalize on every part of your life, but never leave your family and friends on the after-burner. Tell your friends how much they mean to you. Tell your family that you love them. Hold your mom & dad everyday and tell those old farts how fucking much they mean to you and that you will forever love them.
You never know when your last moment will be with a person. Please, try your best to never make it a bad one.




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