Man oh man... first I want to apologize for never updating this life has just be hectic. I am not going to promise you any new scripts or 50 guides I just want to start off small and build myself up instead of making impossible goals which result in me crashing and burning.
These last couple months have been hectic to say the least, I don't even know where to begin.
Ill try anyway
Ill start with the things that bothered me the most, my family.
I am an adult (19 years old) so basically this is what I come home to when I returned from college this year. My father being a crazy alcoholic and my mom not knowing when she should probably not sass or backtalk. It was a rough transition back and it would of been a violent one provided my sister didn't return home and calm me down every time some episode happened. I don't know what it is I am feeling but its just a deep void of sadness to say the least, everyday I look at my life and wonder what it could of been like if I was the neighbors kid or the guy down the streets etc. etc. Not to bash my parents or anything, I live a nice life they make a nice living at their respectful jobs but sometimes you long for more and I am not sure what it is I am looking for maybe actual care of my wellbeing for my sake not for looking good in front of other people not sure, I will figure it out as time goes I guess. Again not trying to sound ungrateful, my parents have provided for me time and time again its just I feel like there is a huge hole where something should be in the relationship between my dad and I. Oh well I am an adult, I don't know why this is pegging me now of all the times in my life it has never felt like this.
Anyway thats over with next topic in my life, females...
So I will confess that I am the biggest jackass in the world, I was talking to a new girl then my ex got back involved with my life, back and forth back and forth for a couple months but I didn't date either of them. I felt like such a scumbag recently that I ended it with both of them and told them I just can't be in a relationship. This is probably the first time in my life I have been completely single since like 8th grade... Its an interesting feeling, very very odd. Cant say I like it.
Anyway thats whats been going on